The lights go on the lights go off. When things don't feel right i lie down like a tired dog, licking his wounds in the shade. When i feel alive i try to immagine a careless life, a scenic world, where the sunsets are all breathtaking

Απογοήτευσα όλους τους άντρες της βραδιάς μου. Και καθώς περνούσε η ώρα το πάρτυ μετατρεπόταν σε διαγωνισμός φιλιού. Στεκόμουν μόνη και τότε εκείνη μου χαμογέλασε. Με πλησίασε. Μου πρόσφερε το μπουκάλι της και με κοίταξε στα μάτια. "Είναι δύσκολες ώρες για όλους μας. Ας το αφήσουμε για την επόμενη φορά." Ήπια λίγη πίκρα απ' το μπουκάλι της και έριξα μία σταγόνα κι απ' τη δικιά μου μέσα. Της το έδωσα πίσω έτσι ώστε να πιει κι αυτή, κάτι σαν να δίναμε υπόσχεση η μία προς την άλλη. Την αγκάλιασα και αποχωριστήκαμε. Ποιός ξέρει αν θα υπάρξει επόμενη φορά; Ή ότι θα θυμόμαστε η μία την άλλη; Ή ότι και την επόμενη φορά δεν θα είναι δύσκολες ώρες; Μερικές φορές συνειδητοποιώ ότι η γενιά μου είναι ακόμα ονειροπόλα. Και χαίρομαι γι' αυτό.

The eye.

 Once upon a time i loved people like nothing else. Tall men, short women, green eyes, smart eyes, shitty eyes, yes i loved all kind of eyes, even those that were closed. It was  always so hurtful healing people's eyes. I could see them burning by sorrow behind that slightest slice of iris, and by staring at their face's large smile i could verify the pain. Yes, pain grows into the eyes that once were wounded and mistreated.
 I never really said anything helpful but i was always there to blame, to step on, to shout and to break so that all kind of bad feelings would become mine. But once i looked them so healthy it didn't matter.  I didn't matter. And now, now i really am the broken one. I look in the mirror  and try to clean my own blurred eyes, and you know what? I don't feel like giving a crap anymore. So i fall and wait someone to catch me. And you know what? This world is full of myselfs. Full of people healing people just for their sake, full of people stealing other people's pain, till they'll too break down. And you know what? That's just not good enough. Now that i see humanity's condom i decided to change and irresponsibly fuck you all cause you deserve me just like i deserve myself.  And you know what? A minute after i stood up on my own two feet once again, i felt the same thing as before : 

  I'll take the blame for all the things that cracked your soul

  to take the glory for saving you from this pathetic slow death